The moment the Earth stood still for me (in loving memory, a week from today, 10 years ago)

The day wasn't meant for concentrating in work, thus it was kind of slow and non-productive. Incidentally, the call came in and other things just had to jell in. It sort of affected my feelings and emotions but things was taking a step better, just slower.

Raymond asked a very good set of questions... quote: "Question of the Day: An interesting One. About Love. Q1: What is Love? Q2: U can choose 1 only: Will you choose the one who you love or the one who love you? Kindly justify your answer ...." which is later followed by: "Wat if d one love u, u dun have feel? But d one u love dun have feel towards u. Now ... choose again."

As of currently, there's 62 posts on this comment thread and the discussion may grow even longer than it seems. Not going to go into details. Zoey triggered the mood weather further when she mentioned about the "last breathe" that also coincides with Emileen's passing 10 years ago which is about a week from today for a full decade. The whole thing really got my mind clogged and clouded that I wasn't thinking straight or much. I even ended up driving on auto-pilot mode back home. Reaction time for me was deemed slower by milliseconds but that could also serve risky and can be rather deadly on the road.

Andy was being much of an asshole by making fun of everything knowing that she was the one I loved most in my heart even until today... and had to even brought in my pain of complication with Jo. He used 2 of the people I loved most in my life to amuse himself to Richard. It's not much of a fun if you think back about it... and there's nothing stupid about the fact that one would sacrifice for the other including giving up their own life for them... Well, I've dropped the stupid incident because I chose rather not to get angry and upset over brainless fools than to waste my precious time over pathetic retards.

And finally, thank you Venessa, for the good talk. I'm glad I could help you resolve your 'adult' issues. Don't worry, there's nothing to be ashamed talking about that 'topic' because we're all adult and I'm glad I could help and resolve your problems as well as make you feel better. Remember, I always speak in between the fence. Not for MEN or for WOMEN. That's my principle of things, righteous, fair and right straight down the middle. Thus, as Dr. Alicia and Queenie had praised, ethical and professional. Oh, and if I hadn't being that pro and good, the patients won't had come for the therapy, advise and counseling.

Finally, the last agenda... I tried to talk to you earlier today but didn't really had the chance. The 3rd party's presence was unexpected and as usual, I know you always deliberately had him there so that we'd not talk about the issue and you just want to drag it as much as possible and as long as you could. I know you just don't want things to be awkward just for the both of us. All I wanted to tell you was, don't complicate the issue. The situation is, if you can't get over the problem, then you can choose to abort the mission. We cannot evade it forever. Sooner or later we'll have to face this. Not talking about it won't help. It only makes things worse and more painful as it drags longer and longer. It's like the solution you said about other problems... "Block and Delete"... I know you don't wish to choose the solution of delete for our issue but it's not helping or getting anything better if you evade it. My opinion is still to take the trial, do the repair works, see the progress of the damages and probably (my prediction is most likely), it could completely fix the issue. I do agree with Queenie (Tang) on this; you're simply just complicating things. Come to think of it, it's exactly what I faced with the previous issue.

Oh well, I will not change the fact that you're stubborn and nothing can be done about it. It's your character. Speaking of Stubborn-ness... Emery, we spoke about this and you agreed to listen and give things a try and make it better. You know we're buddies and you can always come up to me again for better advise and counseling. As you can see, nothing can affect my ability to professionally consult you.  I've always being very ethical about my profession and all personal issues are always put aside when I have to work on other stuff. You're treated fairly like every other client patient. Well, except the case that I don't charge you for it. =) Oh, and sorry, couldn't accompany you to Pavilion earlier. Oh well, you know why and issue solved.

Last but not least, dearest blood sister of mine, IF YOU HAPPEN to read this... keep this here and DON'T drag it into the family and give Dad and Mom any worries. What happens here, talked about here, written here etc... STAYS here! Jane (Wai and Tang) thanks for your concern.

Jane Tang: your brother is always very strong, else I won't be able to solve your problems all the time. And stop complaining I don't pamper you enough... you know you're equally as important, else I won't had flown all the way over... all the time (when in need/emergencies). I may not have 24hrs a day for you, but I always make sure I have a pocket of air for you regardless. Love from me, mummy-kins and dadddy-kins.

Jane Wai: Speaking of which, have you bombarded your Jimi (17th Flr IBM) for me, yourself and his boss (as per discussed?)??? Yeah, he needs a good lecture and lesson from you. =P~ And you owe me a Blackberry Bold 9700. (Yeah, I don't care... :P ... we're buddies, so you know why)

Mich, Zoey, Eric, Ray: good topic... thanks for the discussion and that was a fun thingy... well, not really  'fun' sorta fun... but we did raise exciting and superb points. Especially the care and concern from all of you. Well, all except Mohan that I've to pity him about the Lesbian lover/partner thingy for him. Cheers mate.

Shayne: I do worry about you once in awhile. We may not be close or know each other much; but I can sense that you're rather vulnerable at times and I also do care for everyone equally. Just so you know... not everything in life is always unfair to you or you're in the worst situation of your life. There are far more worse things than you are experiencing now and if they (and I) can climb up above it, so can you. =)

Oh, and I won't forget you, Chiew Yee a.k.a. Jiro... You're family, obviously I won't leave anything of you out. If I hadn't given enough love and hugs, then apologies... you know everything (yeah, including the deep inside of me) most compared to any others in this whole wide world. Thank you for everything. You're indeed the best. Else I won't be proud of you being my "daughter's" biological mother, am I right? Take super good care of my lil' princess Sophie. She's all I've got.