Lately, I've lost my groove. I've lost touch of my so called "Magic". The ability to do anything and get whatever I want that I've set out to do. I've always been known to be the one who always succeeds and never fails at what I do because what I do, is what I do BEST.
I've had a lot of encouragement. But it's something that I guess I need to pick up from somewhere. It's an inspiration. With this inspiration, then I will be motivated to go forth and achieve what I set out to do. In layman's terms, it's like going into a battlefield with a battle plan. Or like a Lawyer that goes into a courtroom very well prepared to anticipate every single obstacle thrown against him. That's how I succeed and that's how I win every fight. I've never lost. Yup, a record that has never been broken before. But in order to go into such a war, I'm always prepared. I'm always confidence. And I'm always on my A-Game.
Not in this case. I've less than 48hours to prepare myself for a presentation and I've lost my touch. Usually the spark of genius will run into my head and I'm always able to shoot without hesitation. Unfortunately, I'm still without confidence and this will be an upper hand for my downfall. I'm not gonna let it happen. I need that inspiration. But I still can't find it. Hope that struck of lightning will come soon.
Here's a scenario that proves how I work is based on my emotions and confidence. Last Monday, my game of Pool was a Championship stroke of luck. Even at the simplest form of action, I could dominate the game and play at a professional level. Meaning, hit anything, something also scores. Even performing impossible stunts. I even easily won 14-2 in that series. But... on Thursday, it was a different case of the Opposite. Without the necessary confidence and groove, I lost very badly to a 1-6 defeat cause every shot taken was a hysterical one. It's like BAD LUCK for the moment in time. Yesterday, my luck improved slightly with 3 impossible stunts made in the record books. Too bad there's no instant reply to it, else everyone will be shocked to the very core too.
1) I shot the Brown ball into a pocket and it went down and suddenly flew back out and sat onto the cushion. What are the ODDS that a pro can do that??? It's suppose to go all the way into the reservoir but instead, it flew back OUT and SAT there???? The second time I struck it, it went into the pocket alright, but it also flew out of the reservoir and went into another table!
2) 1 shot kills all (Yat Pou Cheng Toi). I've never been able to do this. I'm not a pro and it's certainly a struck of luck. It was so clean that I even cleared the White ball by mistake and forfeits the game loss to my opponent. In fact, the series of 5-4 had about 2-3 games of unforced errors losing to him. Else, it's probably 8-1 or 7-2 only.
3) The triple kill monstrosity. I've never had such luck in such a case that, I aim for A, B goes in instead. Or sometimes, C scores in by some luck and not by precision. So, what are the odds that I target for A and B goes in with C as well? I can't be that good enough to hit 3 scores in one.
Well, that being said, it's just a certain Winds of Change that put the momentum into a different shift.
Some people think that my performance was affected by a certain 'friend'. I do admit that it only has a slight impact. It may supposedly be a huge impact but I managed to keep it under wraps. The speculation is serious. It will affect my "friend's" working performance and reputation as well as the credibility when evaluated.
I strongly advise other friends of ours not to speculate further and create rumors. We're merely friends, after all. The situation can very well be damaging because everyone tries to assume and create misunderstandings. But in actual fact, every party has it's own agenda and does not require the mere presence and intervention of both parties in order for the society to perceive further. In other words, we're both respecting each other's life and decisions.
Its important to me that this friendship is a very huge priority. I do not wish to jeopardize it and neither do I want anything to risk it. I hope everyone can help make it possible. Losing this "friend" isn't an option. I'm also going to change the approach of how everything is going from now on as it has weaknesses being exploited before.
Moving on, I'm still very upset over Maxis for their HORRIBLE way of providing services. I'm disappointed at what other Telco can provide and do but they can't and they are charging an arm and a leg for horrendous unreasonable things. Too many hidden cost and everything also charge till I'm so upset over their stupid Roaming 'plans'. It's just pure nonsense.
At least there's one thing I can be happy about for this week. I got appointed to be the Senior Mentor for this year's Youth Cyber Olympics. Hmm... does that mean I'm gonna start playing video games again like my days of Counter Strikes, HALO, Starcraft, Command & Conquer, Red Alert, Warcraft/DotA etc Days??? Well, to Coach somebody, you gotta play that Game first.. LOLz... Alright then, GAME ON
By the Power of Eternia... I summon my POWER from within... to Transform me into that Ultimate Apex Predator. May the Force be with ME!
